{1} I don't want to share when I am feeling down, discouraged, or stressed.
{2} Sometimes I just don't feel that I have anything happen that is "Blog Worthy"
{3} We are getting so close to leaving for Japan that I am a basket case. I can't get my thoughts together enough to put them into words.
So for the last three months I have been silent. [on the blog that is ] Today I will share a few of my thoughts, my feelings ~ my heart with you.
Since my last post we have been to Springfield, MO for May Fellowship Week at Baptist Bible College, back to Texas, moved the Merkel, TX, back to Springfield, MO for Candidate School, back to Texas, got a "new to us van", up to Iowa, back to Texas and now ::today:: we leave for Tennessee and Kentucky for two weeks!!
We have gained some new supporters and new friends along the way. But these last three months have been hard on all of us. We moved - we left our home in Mesquite, TX. We have known since day one of deputation that this time would come. We knew we would have to leave behind our friends, give up our space, our things. We all knew and had talk about this day. Oh Boy!! We were not prepared {I was not prepared} for how hard it was really going to be. I felt so bad as a mom, asking my kids to give away, throw away, and walk away from "NORMAL". I kept telling them, "Think about all the new stuff we will get when we get to Japan." It seemed to help a little. The day came when we loaded up the van and my parents truck and moved to Merkel, TX. We are living with my parents until we make the BIG move. We are getting settled in and things are working out great. The kids have never lived in a small town and think its just awesome that they can ride their bikes to the store. It's just that sometimes I hear "Mom, can we just go home?" And it breaks my heart because this is home now. This is normal now for now. Four kids in one bedroom is home now. Four boxes labeled with four different names to keep all your favorites things in is home now. How do I explain this to four great kids - without feeling like I have taken so much from them?
And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
I don't want anyone to think that I am not excited about Japan. I am THRILLED about Japan. I am excited about the adventures we will have. I am so ready to start a ladies ministry in the church and make new friends. I am excited to see how the kids will make new friends. I am worried about the language but I know that God will help me. I am excited about setting up house in Japan and learning how to shop a meal at a time rather than a week at a time. I am also excited to learn how to cook like the Japanese!! I am sure that will be an adventure all it's own.
I have so much to look forward too. I am thankful that you have chosen to follow us on
Our Great Adventure . . .
Until next time ~ Cristy
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